Today is the 8th July 2009 .

I got this sudden gush to learn Spanish . Yeah .

And i feel like going shopping tonight . Should i go ? I wanna go alone . Because i know no one wanna do late tonight .

Sigh . Whatever .

I don't know if this is whatever shit mental problem, but whenever i feel angry or very fed-up, or for most of the time, not allowed to do what i wanna do, i starve myself to express my unhappiness .

I used to say out all the things that i dislike or am angry with, but soon i realise that my words made impact on some people and 80% of the times, breaks out into disagreement and quarrelling . So i resort to keeping quiet about what i'm angry with, and stop eating for a long time until i find that i'm going very weak . Because i can really find no other ways to blow my anger on .

I just don't understand why men can't see through 80% of what women wants .